You know what?

Shut the fuck up yeah? As much as I love you and that, you piss me off

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Right, I'm just gonna put this out there, it will make me feel better.

I've discovered that, having a boyfriend is over rated. Things get messy. My whole high school life was devoted to trying to please someone else, and what came of it? I got my feelings hurt more times than I can count. I became a paranoid loon. I was constantly trying to protect myself and make myself better for someone (even though I didnt know it at the time, since I was too busy smitten), I got further away from my friends, I didn't do nearly as well as I could of done on my GCSEs, and I got blamed for ruining someones life at 16 years old. I felt insecure enough in high school and I didn't realise that this boyfriend-having situation was making me feel more insecure than an average teenager should feel. No one should feel like that. Everytime I think back on the last 3 years I find it hard to think of anything good about my relationship. Its terrible but its true. I was a teenager having an adult relationship. The intenseness of it. We were even debating marriage, in high school!

Although it did give me some perspective, some expirience, and the instant instinct to never go for someone contolling in future relationships. Someone who will love me for who I am, and someone who won't judge me or force me to devote myself to their own life ambitions whilst ignoring my own.

Since that chapter of my life ended. I look at this new chapter of my life and think 'this is great' I have a fantastic and amazing group of friends, the loveliest most loyal and supportive best friend, a steady jist on the horror that is A-levels, a dream expirience coming up this summer, and a chance to live my life like a teenager, not an adult.

There
Now this blog is pointless to everyone but me, but I had to get that off of my chest. Now I can leave it.

I learnt how to use a washing machine and dryer today:) achievement!

So, yeah. My Harry Potter party is soon. AND WHAT?!


:D:D

Beggin' youuuu, put your loving hand out baby

Its going fairly well at the moment:)
I mean, I'm happy with how things are happening with school, friends and stuff. Obviously, i'd love to see the college girls more, thats the only thing.
I think its going to be a great year! Lots to look forward to!

- Birthdays next! (and Footloose, strangely)
- Harry Potter party
- Jersey Boys
- exams being done
- Festival
- New York
- Summer (the whole two weeks of it)
- Bestival!


nahhhhhh!!:D

I've been living to see you

Dying to see you but it shouldn't be like this. This was unexpected, what do I do now?
Could we start again please?
I've been very hopeful so far. Now for the first time I think we're going wrong. Hurry up and tell me this is just a dream? Or could we start again please?
I think you've made your point now. You've even gone abit too far to get your message home. Before it gets too frightening, we ought to call a halt. Could we start again please?

Could we start again please?

Oh what a night. Late December back in '63

Right. I think I may have let go abit last night. It was quite a one to remember!
I know I must of completely made an absolute fool out of myself!
It was fun times! but oh god. Odd stuff happened.
Mostly at the end of the night as well. All at once. Behind a shed mostly.
Aha! it was crazy times