I have not thought at all about my own reward. I really didn't come here on my own accord!

Ahhhhh:D
I cannae believe it!
Studying drama in one of the most famous cities in the world!
I never thought I'd actually get a chance!
I just can't wait!:D

Settle Down, You're Scaring Me

I've spent the majority of the last two days in my jim jams.
Christmas holiday, nothing much has really been going on
The Sloop was hilarious. Sitting between Meg and Henry just killed me, I almost choked multiple times!
Got back home from there and had a few drinks with Ellen and her pals, woke up the next day at about 10. Thats the earliest I've got up so far. Simply because I didnt feel very good.
Went to Jodies that night, ended up just chilling which was nice.
That's proberly the last thing I did. That was Saturday
It's now Tuesday evening.
I've done shit all. Apart from doing Biology revision and watching 'an idiot abroad'
I'm so bored now!
I've still got a shameful full bottle of gin that I haven't had. Maybe I should just get drunk right now.
nahhhhhhhhh



Well, going to Ellies tomorrow should be good at least:) it will get me out of the house! It will be nice to see everyone
I felt like I havent seen anyone in ages!

Peace!

'Its like a game of Jenga thats got out of hand' - Karl Pilkington on the Pyramids

This kiss, this kiss

You ever put your arms out and spin really, really fast? Well, that's what love is like. It makes your heart race. It turns the world upside down. But if you're not careful, if you don't keep your eyes on something still, you can lose your balance. You can't see what's happening to the people around you. You can't see that you're about to fall.

Woah-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Snow-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Snow is fun times! kind of
It gets super cold after a while!
Yesterday was nice:) A snow day of course. Did the traditional 'Go to Ryde golf course on a snow day' then went to Dos Amigos with Ellie, Bambi and Andy
An odd crew to say the least!

Today was the day the snow turned to lethal ice. I really, really hate it. Its so mortifying! I slipped a few times whilst going to the chemist with Ellz, then got a hot chocolate from Bagal Wrap and trekked it up to Bambis.
It was nice chilling and catching up with Bambi and Turtle:) Watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire with pizza and tea snuggled under a duvet!
I kind of want to live at his house, with his cat Dennis. Its just such a sweet house!
And his dad really does look like John Lennon.
Nice day overall:) very chilled out
Now I'm going to get a cup of tea, and continue with 'Helmet for my pillow'
I feel content:)


Peace!

'I feel handsome I feel smart! I'm a sexy work of art!'

There's something wild about you child that's so contagious. Let's be outrageous, let's misbehave!!

Ben Barnes<3

'Cause Boys Don't Cry

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
Because boys don't cry
Boyyyyyyys dooooon't cryyyyyy

The Cure at Bestival! YUSS
Already beat the festival by far!

I've been so so so so tired lately. I even took a nap in one of the booths in the 6th form center today, and in history.
I need to start going to bed earlier!

Yeah so, I havent really got much else to say aha!
I hope it snows!

.

'If a man must live in mud and go hungry and risk his flesh you must give him a reason for it, you must give him a cause. A conclusion is not a cause'

Oh I could drink a case of you

YOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

and I'll stillllll be on my feeeeeet, I will stiiiilll be on myyyy feeeet.

I am a lonely painter. I live in a box of paints!
:)

Night!

Maybe I think you're cute and funny, maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you if you know what I mean

Way up there, you and I, you and I.

An actual productive weekend!
Made a biology mind map didn't I?
Its crazy!

I'm looking forward to actually performing footloose. The rehearals are just shite though really. Then again, theres a few good laughs thrown in:) as always!

I am kind of happy now. Although, I've noticed that,
When I talk about a certain someone, I sound very remorseful and very mean and very very angry. I don't think I even mean to. It just comes out like word vomit.
I mean, I do think the things I say, mainly because of what has happened. I'm an angry person on that subject.
I'm not sure if thats bad or not!
Its just how I feel. I didn't feel as angry towards you at the start, but you crossed the bloody line, and pushed me over the edge.

Do I feel bad for being angry?
Yes! thats the worst part!
Like I should say sorry!


Anyhoo, I'll get a cup of tea then sit in bed and read, Like an old woman.
I better wake up and find snow covering every inch of West Street.
and before I go,

Those eyes! So haunting!
My kind of man

I can fix that

I bloody love 'Holes'

Under my skin, i'm just like you

It's always the most inappropriate time I get sick in the most awful way.
For the last two days, I've felt like I've been eating sand, accompanied by a splitting headache and general disorientation.
I think I'm feeling abit sorry for myself at the moment. Its not good. I've resulted to finding all of the most cheesy, soppy love songs I can possibly find and listening to them without shame. I don't even cringe when I put them on. I enjoy it.
I'm such a sad act.
I am definatly not myself at the moment. Otherwise I wouldn't be doing stupid things that I have stupidly been doing over the past week or so. maybe longer.
I mean, why don't I think? Why do I not think about what I'm doing?
I keep loosing my patience aswell. Quite badly
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Another great notion. I've started watching 'The Walking Dead' even though I am shit scared of zombies. It's a fantastic series, and I quite fancy the man in it, who is actually from 'Love Actually'

N'awwww
Still, since I've started watching it, I've had two zombie nightmares.
I really do hate zombies.
They are my worst fear in the whole world
I'm too addicted to it now though!

Anyway, in the poor decision making state I am in at the moment, I managed to make the right decision of watching Back To The Future II and III today. It cheered me up alot.
I reckon they are my favorite movies of all time. Just so good!


Peace

Hogwarts Hogwarts Hoggy Warty Hogwarts Teach Us Something Pleeeease

Ahhhhhh;D

I'm just a sweet transvestite

Today's been too long.
Ive got so much work.
And I've just agreed to taking on the lead in Footloose now that Christie has quit, I'm thrilled, however it's going to be so much more to handle with everything else going on.
Shit sticks.
Chilling in my new spiderman Pjs. Snuggly!
I'm craving to watch the Rocky Horror Picture Show after talking about it in biology today
I literely blog nothing of interest!

I mentioned I was moving, and you said you'd help me move

I'm gonna start reading actual books again. gives me abit of distance from AS biology books and travel guides and books about the Russian Revolution.
I'm starting to get pretty sick of it.

I'll read another memoir. I loved 'With The Old Breed' so much. So intersting and emotional.
Thats what I need, interesting and emotional!
I also need interesting things to be happening right now. I need a party! I want to have fun and get nice and drunk.
..

I hope it rains tomorrow and the Island floods again, so I don't have to get out of bed.

'And iiiiii've got a crush on you'

Jenny Screams Out And Its No Pose, 'Cause When She Dances She Goes And Goes

It's been a funny sort of week hasn't it?

I mean, I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad. Not sure whether its either.
Or whether I should be feeling anything of the sort at all.
I can't quite place what it is.
Its like I'm fairly up beat, on the ball, enjoying myself, but I've been hollowed out from the inside?
Its extremly odd. I don't want to moan. I don't deserve to.
Saying things like that won't get me anywhere either. It's a fairly weak excuse.
I know what might happen this weekend when you go up to your 'Uni friends' and I'm... strangely ok with it. Then again It might not.
I don't like what your friend is saying to you about me. What still gets me is that you told him all the 'pethetic' things about why I did it.
Never really liked him much anyway. Bit of a douche.

Anyhoo, what ho!
List of things to remember for tomorrow:
1. Breath in through the nose, out through the mouth. It will stop you from shaking!
2. Focus. Get into the right frame of mind and stay there.
3. Actually eat something. Tummy rumbles are just plain embarrassing.
4. Don't shake their hand. Apparently its gross, a polite wave maybe
5. Avoid mimicking American accents at all costs.
6. Try not to stutter like Gap tooth Garath.
7. Don't talk fast
8. Do NOT make an inappropriate joke
9. Don't use words commonly used around friends such as 'sexpot' or 'bumder'
10. Don't say good luck to the people who are auditioning you if they say good luck to you. Its awkward.
11. Do not mention you ate a water flea for a tenner
12. Be your bloody self. It'll be a laugh

Why not eh?


N'awwwww:)

Non Jamais, Au Grand Jamais, Regardez Est-ce Que Je Tremble

Bensé
Your lovely
I could listen to you all day even though I can't understand you
You make me want to be French!

Somehow, I'm Leading Someone Else's Life

Well then, It's over.
Wow.
Thats it.

I feel weird. I mean 3 whole years.
I know I have made the right decision. Because it just wasn't there anymore, it wasn't natural. Nothing felt right. There was more bad then good
There was no trust.
I still feel liike a horrible horrible person though.

I still love you. I will for a long long time. I'll miss you so much and I am so sorry.
I want to cry.
But this is my doing, so I should suck it up.


I don't really know what else to say.

Show me the way to be your friend

oh god.

oh god oh god oh god.

I don't know what to do

Monday Morning Comes A-Crawling In

HANGOOOOVVEERRRRRRR

What a lovely weekend though:)

Sarah and Davids wedding was beautiful. Congrats to them!
I had alot more fun then I thought I would, since I didn't know many people there.
But I met alot of new people:) All very nice
The free bar ruined me, lots of crazy dancing! Vaguely remember trying to dip someones goatee in humous.
Sorry Dan.
Good laugh though!
Feeling very fragile now, and a curry is cooking downstaires.
NOM NOM NOM

Panic On The Streets Of London

I havent blogged in aaaaages
Havent really found much to blog about!
Anyhoo, this past weekend has been good stuff
Friday was messy, so much fun! Even though two people were sick and a certain bumder got 'Put on the spot' bad times fo' him! Sozza man
An odd night it was! Has to happen again I reckon
:)
Saturday was lovely with Tom-arse:) Got a dominos and watched the whole series of Misfits
'I'm getting assaulted by a chick with a dick!'
Had abit of a rough week of it last week and sort of broke down abit in front of Griffiths. Bless her
I literely NEVER do that. Why did I do that? Whats wrong with me? I'm not that kind of person
Lost my cool abit.
I'm feeling pretty relaxed, just got back from watching Charlie St Cloud. Its a good film, 'cept Charlies abit of a nutcase. Who wanks themself off in a graveyard? No one I know!
Filth

Time for some OJ and sleep, I've got a horrible headache:/ Ive begun listening to Bense again, I adore the frenchness of his voice!

I really want this, I understand there is hardly a chance but I really really want this. I don't want to blow it

Peace!

The Ballad Of Me And My Friends

Everybody's got themselves a plan, everybody thinks they'll be the man, including the girls. The musicians who lack the friends to form a band are singer-songwriters, the rest of us are DJ's or official club photographers. And tonight I'm playing another Nambucca show, so I'm going through my phonebook, texting everyone I know, and I quite a few I don't, whose numbers found their way into my phone, but they might come along anyway, you never really know.


And we're definitely going to hell,
But we'll have all the best stories to tell

My mind's racing from chasing pirates

Hey Bella!



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I REALLY WANT TO GO

And if to torture me more, I get that the day I start my A-levels
Bastards
BESTIVALLLLLLLLLLLLLL

So many ways to love youuuu

What a night! lots of drama, lots of fun!
I may copy Eloise in the style of this blog. Sozza man!
Let recall that crazy night, I remember:

.Meg and Eloise's rendition of 'angels'
.Slamming my two fingers in the toilet door and Izzy sucking off the blood
.Playing skipping with Eloise's dress rags
.Having a chat in the toilet with Kathleen
.Have a heart to heart with Kathleen and almost balling my eyes out
.Actually balling my eyes out (hysterically) and Richard of all people calming me down. How embarrassing
.Chasing a fuming Grant across the road
.Tripping over a passed out Meg on the floor
.Requesting countless songs to DJ Trev including 'Rock me Amadius' which he refused
.Meg stuffing a cup of pimms on my cheek. Resulting in a sticky cheek
.Making proper amends with Ashleigh
.Numerous Brian Badonde
.Eloise thrusting at me whilst nodding off to sleep
.Crazy Mel
.Disussing farm life
.Sleeping on stage and feeling an enormous amount of jealousy for Kathleen and her dolphin pillow

So much went on last night! It all sort of blurred together, in a good way
Everyone was pretty out of it!


'Oh my god, sooo in love'

.,

'Mail usually was a big morale booster, but not for me that time. There was a chilly drizzling rain off and on. We were weary and my spirits wearn't the best. I sat on my helmet in the mud and read a letter from my parents. It brought the news that Deacon, my beloved spaniel, had been hit by an automobile, had dragged himself home, and had died in my father's arms. He had been my constant companion during the several years before I had left home for college. There, with the sound of heavy firing up ahead and the sufferings and deaths of thousands of men going on nearby, big tears rolled down my cheeks, because Deacon was dead.'

You what dick'ed?

Ive just slept for 18 hours
6 is the earliest i've been to bed ever since I was a child!
Anyhoo, it's nice to be back
The trans atlantic crossing was spectacular:)
Alot of phillapino workers on there! Larlet<3
New York was amazing! I really want to live there!
Saw Central Park and Time Square and the naked Gormleys amonst other things:)
Went to the new Yankees stadium to watch the baseball
Red Sox won which was abit awkward as nobody cheered for them.
An overall lovely trip:)
I miss it already!
It was good to be back and see everyone though, even if I was dangerously tired haha:)
Looking forward to Resultsival now! Not so much results though:/
And bestival! Yussssss
Peace

'I put the diamond on the coat, I put the coat on her!'

And so it is, just like you said it would be

I had a good laugh the other day,
I like spontanious, on the spot thinking
Sometimes its when you have the most fun
Good times:)
LOVE YA JOSE

I just remember that time at the market, you snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart, and rode down ailse 5

You looked behind you to smile back at me, crashed into a rack full of magazines. They asked us if we could leave


This weeks been way too long!
Some parts were lovely though:)
I just want to go away now! I feel I need to get away for a while. The Isle of Wight is very confining for long periods of time, its good to get away for abit, even if just to portsmouth or something.
Only 8 days now, I'm so excited!
Hopefully they'll let me on the ship, since I havent properly signed out of Ryde High
Student services will be out for me!
I feel exausted, though in a good way..
:D


Peace!

'Stick that up your toga God! you big bearded kill joy'

If you're oh so fucking different then who cares what you have to say?

Because we write love songs in C, we do politics in G. We sing songs about our friends in E Minor. So tear down the stars now and take up your guitars, come on folks and try this at home.

HELLO JEZEPI!

I was looking through a few of my old notes and surveys I did on facebook, and came across that very quote.

'Hello Jezepi' That was my laughing stock for months and months!
I cant believe I forgot about it! It was hilarious at the time
One of the good things I remember about Global Rock aha

Shamefully, i've been listening to Taylor Swift more than i'd care to admit lately.
Whats wrong with me man?!

Giggly-gogs

When you want something but can't name it, it's under a streetlight

So let the wind blow us
To wherever it says
We are supposed to go

Joshua Radins new songs are just lovely<3


These last few days have been lovely, and chilled out, I've had a laugh and its been nice. Words like 'com-promise' come to mind aha!
Although, there is something else which I am not quite sure of, I'm not sure if i've done something wrong or just my manner of speaking or acting. I'm not sure how to approach it. Even small things seem out of hand. Something has changed. I'm not sure how long the change will last, and that scares me a little.
Anyway, what ho!



No party is fun, unless seasoned with folly. - Desiderius Erasmus

I could not agree more!

It's not that we're scared It's just that it's delicate

Stuck-Up
adj
Informal conceited, arrogant, or snobbish

Arse-Licking
the behaviour of someone who is too pleasant and helpful to someone in authority, in order to get what they want
related words for this meaning of arse-licking: dishonesty, deceit, corruption,


I don't have much of a say as I hardly know you, though I must say I am incredibly embarrassed for you. Silly children.


Pizza hut was fun! ate untill I felt sick. Fortunately nobody was this time!

Peace!

You're slowly falling out of reach

Anger - a strong emotion, a feeling that is oriented toward some real or supposed grievance

When did you get so ill tempered? Honestly
I hate the fact that these are such small things. But I can never get through to you. Like we are on other sides of the spectrum.
Oh ball bags.

Food for thought

"Shock is primal instinct. There is shock when prey is attacked by predator, and this progressed into Man until he began to associate this with other beings and flowed naturally into his writings. Shock, when the antelope is speared down by a hunter. Shock, when Man realises the horror of the dead and blood. Shock, when the earliest of Man realized what love was." – The Advanced Guide to Writing

Oh you're such a pretty thing i'll take you and i'll make you all mine

The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do. - Walter Bagehot

It's been a lovely week:)
Went to see Eclipse last night! A good film I must say, but incredibly awkward and gay at some parts nevertheless
:)
The Regatta was a pile of ball bags. Honestly Ryde! Just a bunch of mini hovercrafts and a few flags. And an incredibly annoying woman with a microphone. And a girly boy in speedos. Gross man.

Wednesday was amazing. Seeing Jack Johnson play proberly made my life haha. After listening to him for years seeing him live was simply spectacular<3
And Ben Stiller coming on at the end was pretty awsome!
The only thing wrong with that night was the idiot taxi driver. Fool.
I'm hoping next week will be a good one:)
And I must check out the Compton mud baths at some point!



'My English teabags!'

John's got brewers droop he gets intimidated By the dirty pigeons, they love a bit of him!

I loved having everyone round last night:) it was so nice to have everyone together!
I laughed so much I almost wet myself!
I'm mega exausted. I'm hoping to beach it every day next week!
This blog isnt very interesting by the way, thought I'd let you know, I havent got anything sad to report. I'm feeling incredibly contented at the moment.
Although! I watched yet another football game today with Tom, Japan V Paraquay or something.
Japan lost, I was rooting for them,
but the sad thing was when they lost they all started crying.
Have you ever seen a Japanese person cry? Its terrible!
Poor things. They took a beating!

On the upside, I'm going to 'Lenden' to see this delicious man tomorrow!

It will make my life!

Peace!

'Are you a Jap? Cause you sneak up like one!'

We can do coffee

If I wrote down a hundred things,
That I thought that I could do,
By the time that I was 67.

Would there be another list,
Of 99 things that I missed,
Just because I had a fear of failing.

Would I have walked between two towers,
Just like the man on wire,
Even though he had a chance of falling

I sleep walked at Toms last night and pulled down one of his curtains. LOL!
I had no idea what was going on untill he shouted 'Bella what are you doing?!'
Then I woke up from my 'trance' and couldn't explain myself! I then proceeded to tell him it was deathly bad luck to wake a sleepwalker. He believed me, it was crazy times!
I havent sleep walked in ages! Let alone pull down someones curtains in my sleep. Amazing what you can do unconciously eh?
I must invest in a curtain rail for Tom.

Aaaaanywaaaay,
I have some thoughts. I'm abit afraid, worried would be a better word. Only because, I want everyone to be ok, and happy and I certainly do not want anybody to be hurt.
THAT SAID, I am not sticking my nose in anything, and nothing seems bad, so I will chill like ice cream fill, and go with the flow, because theres no better way. This summers meant to be a fun one eh? So there!

Peace.


'Yeah, 'cause we all grow rasberrys round here don't we?'

In December drinking horchata

It's so bloody hot!
I need to make the most of this lovely weather:)
I hate sleeping at night when its hot though. The worst thing
I think this weather getting to my head a little bit aswell:/ I honestly don't mean to get up in arms
I'm terribly sorry if I get angry for no reason what so ever, I know it's no excuse. I'm just abit silly sometimes

Right.

I'm really getting into 'Contra' good album!

Peace!

'Wanna be a big cop in a small town? fuck off up the model village'

'You're so sweet to me in a world that's not always fair'

RIGHT
Toms Birthday today:) he loved his pressies! He almost pooped his pants when he got those John Mayer plectrums. Honestly
Fathers day also:) dad liked his expresso machine. He loves his expressos!
Exams are almost over! 3 more then thats it!
Im planning a nice girly sleepover sometime next week! Laaavly:) to celebrate end of exams!
10 days untill Jack Johnson!
47 days untill New York!
A great summer ahead!
Big loves to the Eloise! A strong hearted girl indeed!
This summer has turned out to be pretty much perfect so far
Great Festival
exams have gone quick!
and if Kat were still moving, she would be leaving in 5 days
But shes not! so it's great!

Check this: It made me LOL!




'Not every nook and cranny John!'

I wanna be a paperback writer, paperback writer!

Blimey. The Isle Of Wight Festival was abserloutly amazing.
Such a brilliant weekend! full of laughs and bands and alcahol and dirty filth.
Band highlights proberly Jay Z and Paul McCartney
I think it made my life seeing Paul. He did all the classics! I almost cried
Incredibly wiped now,with a burnt nose and feet looking like something out of a horror movie.

Ahhhhhhh:)

Is this Burt? From accouting?

I've just realised that my last blog was my 100th. Craaaazy! I didnt mention it because I was too busy moaning!
I will christen this 101st blog with a clip from Horton Hears A Who


Classic Vlad!
I love that film so much it's unreal!
3 days man! 3 days from now i'll be at the festival!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!

I'm saving up to take a trip to Mexico, i heard it's the place to go

I want to see the colours of another sky

I've had such a god awful day
I needed to do some revision really. But it's just so BORING
Glad i got abit done though
I'm feeling sick from the sunburn aswell. Why do I always do this? It's not going to tan, it's going to peel!
I've been tripping balls. I wanted to go out this evening. I just didnt feel up to it. It sucks:/ I feel fed up and silly and a little bit useless. At a loose end.
Hm
I feel abit annoyed aswell. I shouldnt even be annoyed at what i'm annoyed at. It's just abit disrespectful.

'4 years ago in some miserable part of the pacific I was dreaming of a moment like this with you'

This half term has started out nicely:)
had a lovely Saturday with the friends and a lovely Monday with Tom:)
I need to get revising though:/ I'm lacking on the knowlage!
Festivals soon and its gonna be a good one I hope:) Things are moving crazy fast already. Bad times. I want it to laaast.
I think i'm gonna do some heavy revision tomorrow, just for funsies
Eurgh.



Ive just seen the last part and it is truly an amazing series. I dont think ive cried so much in my life!
I think i'll give war films a rest for abit

Peace!

Turn around bright eeeeeeyyyyyes

This is what a rainy day in a basement with a wheelchair and a few friends can do,
ooooh Glee!
A special congratulations to Mel for her disabled acting.
Aha! Good day!

Quand Je Marche

I feel abit iggly:/
Stuffs coming around so fast, It's sort of fustrating.
I don't know how i'm meant to react to anything
Things seem different already, with everything and everyone
This summer better be good!

On a different note, I severly love this french man!

Oh! Hark!

I should be revising science
I'll do some after this!
Exams are coming around very fast and I'm fully like, doing them now
It doesnt feel as bad as i thought it would:)
Festival is so so so soon and i'm sooooo exciiiited!!
Lets hope it's a good one!

And I hope you feel better about everything:) It'll work itself out I'm sure.

Right, short blog, gonna do some work!
Check this out:



Ahh I love it:) I need to get the EP

Peace!

'Shut it love actually!'

Thirteen

We've been in the rain
We've been on the mountain
We've been round the fire

In fancy hotels
Drank water from farm wells
We sang with the choir

I kissed your dry lips
We jumped off the high cliffs
And splashed down below

Skin to skin
In the salty river
Made love in the shadow

Read books to each other
Read the mind of the other
Flew one thousand

We laughed and we cried
At movies and real life
In our ridiculous beds

We danced in the moonlight at midnight
We pressed against back doors and wooden floors
And you never faked it

And frequently
We ignored our love
But we could never mistake it

We met on the front porch
Fell in love on the phone
Without the physical wreck

You gave me the necklace
That used to hang
Around your mothers neck

We questioned religions
Fed bread to the pigeons
We learned how to pray

We stood by the ocean
Turned our hearts in to one
We laid in bed all day


We skipped on the sidewalk
Skipped stones on the water
We skipped town

We've seen the sunrise with new eyes
We've seen the damage of gossip and true lies
We've seen the sun go down

Had passionate makeouts
And passionate freakouts
We built this world of our own,

It was in the back of a taxi
When you told me you loved me
And that I wasnt alone



<3

Uptown Girl!

I'm knackered!
I had a really lovely time at Henrys:)
I loved dancing into the wee hours of the morning in my Jim Jams
And ripping it out of total eclipse of the heart with Eloise and Mel,
And singing Frank Turner at the top of my lungs on stage with Grant,
And how Henry's dad looked like Al Pacino in the Godfather 3,
And the trip to the pub to get a pudding!
Over all a great time:)
I also had a lovely friday with Tom:):) We're Supernatural fanatics!
A great way to start those horrible exams
Then theres the festival to look forward to!
Ahhhhhh!!!!!!
:D

Here are some photos, some old some new:) Just thought i'd put some up:)














'Difficult, difficult. Lemon difficult'

A picture of you, holding a picture of me in the pocket of my blue jeans

Abit of Ray Lamontagne before bed:)
Shitting it about next week, a nasty twisting feeling in my stomach when i think about it
I never get this nervous about drama. seems silly really
Started my epic Tin Man costume for Henrys party!
Its actually a cardboard wine crate with arm holes and a head hole.
All i need now is a funnel hat and a shit load of tin foil and it's on!
Yesterday was nice:) went to town with Kat, Mel and Carissa then chilled at mine. We tried to get Microsoft Sam to sing along to Miley Cyrus, I almost wet myself!
Went to see Iron Man 2 with Tom today. I do love abit of Iron Man, favourite superhero movie I reckon!
Tom also demonstrated what a 'retard-a-saurus' was. Made my day<3
Overall a lovely weekend indeed:)
Tired now! very late blog, considering its a school night!
peace!


"Y'know, I've come across a lot of psychos, but none as fucking boring as you. You are a real boring fuck. Sorry, sorry, I know you disapprove of swearing so I'll sort that out. You are a boring F, star, star, CUNT"

You are lovely tonight

Fuck exams right up the ass!

Goodish day today:)
school was average. Abit more chilled. I laughed a whole lot more:)
'SCOUTING FOR GIRLS'
aha


Drama after school went well:) which was reasuring.
I can't wait for it to be over!
Itching for the holidays and the festival and New York
Gah!

Meg wrote a list of what we could do in the summer today:
she wrote:
Get Wasted
Get high more than once

She makes me laugh!

HOLLA

I will stop flighting once your circuit board's igniting Singing, "I'm not finished, I'm not finished! No!"

Lots to do over the next few weeks. Then a great weight off of my shoulders!
Just getting ready to pop off to Millys with Kat to munch out and watch movies:)
Last night was lovely:) Up till 2:30 in the morning watching Supernatural with Tom:)
I love sleeping round his. I feel so at home, and lately we always end up watching supernatural and eating leftover easter eggs till super late, and then we can't sleep afterwards because its abit too scary!
I love it:)
I love him!

Im happier than i've been in a while:)
Lets hope it settles!

They made a statue of us,

They made a statue of us
And it put it on a mountain top
Now tourists come and stare at us
Blow bubbles with their gum
Take photographs have fun, have fun

They'll name a city after us
And later say it's all our fault
Then they'll give us a talking to
Then they'll give us a talking to
Because they've got years of experience
We're living in a den of thieves
Rummaging for answers in the pages
We're living in a den of thieves
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious
And it's contagious


All I have on my mind at the moment is exams. exams, exams, exams
bloody exams!
They all seem so stupidly important
They are important
but thats not the point.

Maybe the reason everyones been so distant lately is because theyre so wrapped up in exams.
Theres so much pressure and stress on everyone. Doesnt seem fair for a teenager.
Not suprising really. I desparately want it to be over
Maybe theres nothing to worry about.
Then again, maybe not.

For gods sake man.
I don't want to have a shit summer either
I want it to be really good!!



Ah well, lots to look forward to still!
I shoud cheer up

A room with a window facing west towards the sea. you with your hands across your chest, facing me

Sing me a song, you voice is like silver. I don't think that I can do this anymore

The Staves are pretty good! I can't find them anywhere to download the music though:/
hmmm

To be honest, this formspring stuff is getting abit stupid now.
Most people who get it, say something like 'bring on the abuse!' and when that happens
They complain about it! People saying what they think of you. Some of it is obviously gonna hurt. The whole thing sounds completly retarded
I'd rather not know what people think of me. Blissful ignorance.
Either delete your formspring, or just don't get it in the first place!
It has caused so much ruckuss!

Right, now thats said, I've had a lovely week:)
Robin hill and Blackgang chine were good fun:)
and Joshua Radin was just amazing!<3
Yesterday I saw Eliza and Milly, we had a BBQ and went kyacing. It was so nice:)
And Tom has been the most amazing boyfriend this week:) I love him so much
Off to Mels inabit. Should be lovely seeing everyone!
Better get ready!


Peace!

One thing i could never confess, is that I can't dance a single step

Here's something that really made me laugh today:)



Good times!
I'm hoping to do alot this easter! I'm having a lovely one so far:)
Ive spent easter sunday eating chocolate and watching lion man
He really is the best man around! Lion taming wise

HOLLAAA

I got some troubles, but they won't last. I'm gonna lay right down here in the grass, and pretty soon all my troubles will pass cos i'm in shu shu shu

Shu shu shu
shu shu shu shu shu shu sugar towwwwwn


Last night was abit odd
Bit of a disaster really.
I hate to see my friends hurting
Everyone does
And there wasnt much I could do
To be honest, what I see in some people these days is childishness
I know everyone says don't grow up too fast, have fun and in some cases thats true.
But theres having fun, and theres acting like a complete idiot
I proper shat myself about the badgers aswell


Well todays been good anyway.
Happy Birthday mumma:)!
Sams down, always fun:)
Had a bit of a jamming session with Ellen, and she also put some really good tunes on my spotify playlist
I'm getting more into Devendra Banhart, and Bright Eyes is pretty good too
Its sunny and nice, i'm liking this weather
I hope it stays like this
Pointless blog, so i'm gonna head off
I'm staying at Toms house tonight, I miss him terribly
And i've decided to go to the bestival as a lepricorn

HOLLAAAA


I cant wait to get a way for a while. Not in a bad way

When I touch you, my heart begins to flutter 'cause you're smooth and creamy, like peanut butter

Jack Johnson you sly dog!
I can't wait to see you!

I'm choosing to start my textiles folder work at 16:00
It's now 15:45 giving me 15 minutes to chill:)
I've had a slow weekend, i've blogged alot aswell!
It's been nice though:)
I think of all the work and revising i need to do now, and think of what the year has to bring.
After its all done, the feeling will be very rewarding!
I'll have the whole summer to have fun! and not worry about GCSEs
Its gonna feel sooooooo good!
I feel so good right now!
I havent felt good all week. Ive felt stressed out and worried
Shitting mega bricks
But i realise its not all bad. Just gotta get it out of the way!

Hollaaaaa!

But now, now you've got me all fired up inside

Watching over the rainbow, making me think how i'd really like to go into musical theatre
Its so cool!

Had a nice day today:) just chilled with Mel, Kat and Carissa
I feel abit better about whats to come now
Truth is, we will see each other really, if we want to. We'll make it happen:)
So its all good for now, just got to get past GCSEs and it will be an easy breezy summer
I really can't wait for New York. I really really cant wait!
Go Yankees!



Is it me, or do me and my sister look strangely alike in this picture?
gives me the shivers

Someone stole my shoes but theres a couple of bananas and a bottle of booze

Ive been thinking
next year, my group of friends are gonna go to different places for Alevels
Either Ryde high, or the 6th form thats opening.
Its all about education right?
Well we are all going to be separated, we wont really see each other as a group again.
To be honest, it feels like nobody seems to care
A friendship is gonna be over, thats been built through the whole of high school
Our group. Its going to seperate. Isnt that just abit sad?
In year 9 and 10, we were really tight.
Who am i going to invite to my birthday next year?
I dont know. That really scares me
Might as well make the best of whats left

Who would of thought a french kiss from a Parisian girl could capture an English boy

Feeling tired
Stressed out
Worried
But still, its all good

Frank Turner was amazing. Hes a genius!
Good good night!
My ears still havent popped properly
Shouting the songs at him!


Dramas stressing me out a bitch.
I want more than anything to get an A* but at the moment, that seems so hard
Its the only subject I really really like

Ah shucks


'She was the prettiest at the show!'

He never ever saw it coming at all

I'm not really in a good mood.
I feel very drained,
and everything and everybody is annoying me
I really want to have lots and lots of fun this summer
I want to chill out, and go out more
And not have to worry much, just enjoy it
At this moment it doesnt seem possible, but i'll make it happen. I'm sure of it
I dont need or want any pressure from anyone. Just let me be please.
Fucking hell
FuckoffFuckoffFuckoff

I dont know what else to put.
I doubt its anything nice.
It will pass. Grin and bare it

:'(

To die by your side, is such a heavenly way to die

Please. Stop making something out of nothing
I have alot of stress at the moment. dont make it worse.
Please just, chill out.
I dont like the pressure. I cant stand it



On a lighter note, I was shitting bricks today!

Its tough to be a god!

Forgotton how much i love The Road To El Dorado
Saw it last week for the first time in years!


I used to fancy the one in blue.
An animation of corse but none the less, he was still my eye candy back in the day.
Aha!


'Stars...cant do it....not today'

Its more constructive than the one in Canada when you got drunk, ate loads of crisps and threw up by a football pitch

Los Campesinos!<3

I do not like green eggs and ham, i do not like them Sam I am.
A chilled weekend
Cant motivate myself to do work at all
Which is tres bad. Cannae be arsed



I thought I knew whats going on, but actually i have NO idea.
Today, that became a very real statement.
I did NOT see that coming at all!
..
Crazy times
No inside eye here.
Jeeeeeez


also,
I kind of love how some people who used to have some respect have completly lost it.
They all deserved it though. Every last stinking one of them. Ball bags

aha.

with that, i'm out


'Its me! its you! its dancing!'

Words are spilling out like endless rain into a paper cup. They sliver while they pass they slip away, across the universe

I still feel horrible
I have no idea what brought this all on
I would rather be in school then sat at home being ill and feeling sorry for myself
Honestly, i need to get better, cause its bringing me down
I dont like being down:'(
I need a good laugh
I need my friends:(

I had a very boring sad day
I think the highlight of it was when 'Horton hears a who' came on T.V
I LOVE Dr Zuess<3

'Mr. FarFloogin of the Cloogin FarFloogins'

Anyway, int the spirit of Dr Zuess, this made me laugh a fair ammount

Thankyou Sam:)


PEACE

Mushaboom

Ive once again had a lovely weekend:)
Southampton was quite sucessful:) managed not to spend too much:)
Got a shakeaway for the first time. They are HEAVENLY.
Came home and watched Angels and Deamons with Tom. It still makes me laugh! And then (finally) watched 500 days of summer. Defanatly my new favourite movie:) So sweet!
Joseph Gordon-Levitt<3

Also, thanking Tom for being so lovely to me this weekend
I bloody love him<3:D

I feel for a big sleepover soon. Round mine, chilling an watching films and Beatles Rock Band and munching out
I'll get on that, whens everyone free?
I'll work something out

Everyones varh varh busy these days, including me, lots of school work:/
School you schlaaaaag!
lots of work to do!

I'm feeling a tad ill, so im gonna chill now for abit
:):)

There always has to be a scene like this in a movie after someone has had sex. Always
haha:)


PEACE

You make my dreams come true! Ooh- ooh!

What I want, you've got
And it might be hard to handle
But like the flame that burns the candle
The candle feeds the flame
What I've got's full stock of thoughts
and dreams that scatter
You pull them all together
And how, I can't explain
But You make my dreams come true
On a night when bad dreams become a screamer
When they're messin' with the dreamer
I can laugh it in the face
Twist and shout my way out
And wrape yourself around me
'Cause I ain't the way that you found me
I'll never be the same
'Cause You make my dreams come true
I'm down on the daydream
That sleepwalk should be over by now
I know that You make my dreams come true


This song is so contagious!
I cant help but sing along and dance around, its crazy!

500 days of summer soundtrack<3 Its excelent
I havent even seen the film! i should get on that

On a down note! Some people really grate on my nerves.
FUCK OFF
GROW UP
Honestly, you are making a shambles out of yourself


:)

'24/7? I do 25/8!'

Everything that happens from now

Its far too late to be writing a blog, but ive only just finished catching up on Lost! About to go to bed i swear:)

I've had a nice half term:) very chilled!
I'm trying to drag it out the best i can before diving back into hardcore school work:/
Jades party was really good:)
I do like a good mingle!
and getting served lollies from the turkish peoploe in the dirty kebab house afterwards was quite a laugh!
They love life!

Ive been listening to Bon Iver all half term<3
They are so good! Relaxing:)

I'm varh tired! Time to get on
I'm having snuggie problems. Its gone all static, when i ran up the stairs in it it gave me a nasty electric shock. I'm in it right now, putting myself at risk.
Maybe i'll wash it!

This is an incredibly tedious and boring blog, again. Ahh man
I talk balls on this nower days! Most of it has no relevence what so ever!
I'll try and make 'em abit more meaningful in the future haha:)

PEACE!


'Hey so Jesse wanted me to tell you you're a fucking faggot and you can't come to his party'

Hand clappin, hip shakin' heart breakin theres no fakin!

51 minutes untill i turn 16!
Yes! yes! yes!
I think ive just had the last Jonas Brothers sesh as a 15 year old. Aha!
Tuned down to some Jack Johnson now:)
I love him so much!
I'm excited! Its only turning a year older but still, birthdays are always a laugh eh?
:)

This year is gonna be good! I can feel it in my postey bones!
There seems to be things toppling up, in a good way:) things to look forward to!

Frank Turner
GCSE's OVER!
Study leave
Festival
Jack Johnson
SUMMER<3
New York
6thForm(Strangely!)
Bestival

Its time to look forward:D Looking more in the present times here, Valentines day:)<3
And Mondays gonna be a laugh!
Me and my friends in Middle Eastern get up, making dinner(!) and poncing around:D
Only just decided that first part today, its not racist! Russell Brand did it!

ahahahahahHAHAHAHA

These are some things that made me LOL today!
And Tom Really sneezing in maths, that was so sick that it was hilarious!

And you are not lost, I'm always there with you, and we'll get lost together

Today has been awfully nice.
Me, Kat, Carissa and Mel, a good laugh:)
We don't have to always do much. It's good to know we can do what we want, no pressure at all. Sometimes thats all you need, to get away from it all. Everythings stress free.
We figured something out today i think. Things are not how they used to be, not at all. Kind of sad really.
I dont want to be a liability. Its wrong.
Thats how it feels.
But whatever.
I am happy. Though, i have realised the in-perfections. A gaping hole that i havent noticed.
I'm happy to carry on. I proportionalize, not because i have to, but because i want to.
Right. Shouldnt moan anymore. Sozza.
Off to Kats in a mo!

Peace!

See what i'm trying to say is, you make things, better!

I had an ok day today:) though i did think of something
Its not the way someone does something, its the way they do it. Or the way they say it. It can affect people in alot of ways. I suppose that sounds abit picky, but in some circumstances it may be a true statement
..Food for thought!

On a lighter note, check this:


I laughed so much at this!

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Cha!

I'm the HipHop-Potamus

'cause I got flows that glow like phosphorous
Poppin off the top of this oesophageus
Not because I'm a water dwelling mammal from Africa
Called a hippopotamus I'm not a hippopotamus, I'm a hiphop-potamus
Where did you get the preposterous hypothesis that I was a hippopotamus?
Did Steve tell you?
What's he got to do with it?
Bloody Steve!!

haha!

I'm feeling so ill right now.
I dont know whats brought it all on!
AAGH:(

I'll put some pictures on this blog, otherwise it seems very boring!










Some oldies thrown in there!

Yo man,

There's a lot of brothers out there flakin' and perpetratin’ But scared to kick reality.

Yo Dre, you've been doing all this dope producing, you had a chance to show them what time it is...So, what you want me to do? Express yourself!

The soundtrack from Tony Pro Skater 4 is proberly one of the best soundtracks out there i'm sure!

Today was abit weird.

Had my first maths lesson with Jackie(Chan)

We did trig,

It was alright aha:)

I've had a good couple of days i think!

I taught Tom to dance abit the other day, it was hilari-arse!

Hes such a silly billy:)<3

I'm getting the feeling that something isnt quite right somewhere, I dont know whats going on.

Hmmmm,

Everyone needs to chill out abit.

Easier said than done i suppose

Anyway, food for thought!

And also, its not all about you you know?

I rekon Jimmy Carr would make an excelent Troy!

I aint sayin' shes a golddigger

Hot chocolate is better if you drink it with a straw
Why has it got a mustache?
If i exploded, what would happen to my contacts?
Would you like a free picture?
That would be £90.00 please
You've spent £53 above your tariff charge this month
PHOOWAAAARRRRR
What do you mean by 'air lock?'
Peach bum
Ooh Mark, you do look good in that kimono
We should take pole dancing classes
What is that?! Its the kit-kat. It looks like shit!
Why did you buy that? Its a finance book.

London was excelent today!:D
I'm a tired girl now!
I love our Japanese class<3

Peace!

Take off both your shoes and clothes i'll follow

Undo corkscrew drink from the half of a broken bottle
Lately we’re running out of time, aren’t we?
Smoking often and calling out our guilty pleasures
Let’s keep talking anything to stop clock watching
Lately we’re running out of time. aren’t we?
crazy for running all the time? Maybe,
Let’s forget we’re running out of time
I’m off like an aeroplane
I’m licking your postage stamp again
I’m using my right brain and I’m praying the wieght will crash
Who knew I’d come so fast?
So what if a two pump chump can’t last
But I made it to three and I foreclosed a five-minute fantasy
On a short lived flight making love on economy

Ahaha:) catchy song!
Phooowarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


I've had a good few days! Weekend was good with Eliza:) And today was good with Tom<3
He's laaaaavly:)
I have nothing gloomy to report, apart from Ellan and her group of ri-tards grating on my nerves. As always though. Whats new?
bunch of gaystacks.

Thats its really! Boring blog! P E A C E




yum!

One song, Glory. One song, before I go

Thought I might have a go,
Alrighty!


Smoked weed -- £10
Did acid or pills -- £5
Ever had sex at church -- £25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- £40
Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo etc -- £25
Had sex for money -- £100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- £20
Vandalized something -- £20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- £10
Beat up someone -- £20
Been jumped -- £10
Cross dressed -- £10
Given money to stripper -- £25
Been in love with a stripper -- £20
Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- £0.10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- £15
Ever drive and drank -- £20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- £50
Used toys while having sex -- £30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- £20
Went skinny dipping -- £5
Had sex in a pool -- £20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- £10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- £20
Cheated on your significant other -- £10
Masturbated -- £10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- £20
Done oral -- £5
Got oral -- £5
Done/got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- £25
Stole something -- £10
Had sex with someone in jail -- £25
Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- £15
Had a threesome -- £50
Had sex in public -- £20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex --£25
Stole something worth over more than a hundred quid -- £20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- £20
Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- £25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- £50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- £25
Went streaking -- £5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- £15
Been arrested -- £5
Spent time in jail -- £15
Pissed in the pool -- £0.50
Played spin the bottle -- £5
Done something you regret -- £20
Had sex with your best friend -- £20
Had sex with someone you work with at work -- £25
Had anal sex -- £80
Lied to your mate -- £5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- £25


275 pounds and 10 pence. Jeez
I'm abit of a wreck haha!
ah dear!


RIVERSIDE MOTHERFUCKER

I needed you here to be, my sunshine in London town

Oh please. Just SHUT UP
Moan moan moan moan.
Its all just hot air!
Honestly.

Stefans tonight. Not sure if i can be bothered or not:/
Pah,
I miss my friends:( i only saw them yesterday, but still. I like to chillax with them.

Japanese embassy soon. I'm stupidly excited haha!
wheeeeeeeey

Peace!



'Whats giant gaystacks doing here?'

Now i'm sitting here, sipping at my ice cold beer. Lazing on a sunny afternoon

VASSAAAP
Havent done a blog in aaaaages!
Well, I am very happy?
very tired.
Finally learnt 'belle' on the guitar, with a little help from Tom
I feel absoloutly great about us, its just like it used to be. The good times i mean
He seems pretty set on making me happy, and its worked out pretty well so far:)

The ice is being a bitch to me. I shit myself everytime i have to walk on it.
I really hate the ice
I'd rather have Robert Pattinson sing to me.
Nah not really. Id rather stick pins in my eyes.
Sweaty bastard

aaaaanywaaaaaay
My birthday soon, Gonna be bangin!
I need to think what to do!

Peace y'all!


'we are sooooo like the sex and the city girls,
which one are you Donny?'
'I aint none of 'em. I'm Donny'
'....that is such a Samantha thing to say'